I confess: I’ve been keeping a secret from you.
Something big’s been building in my life over the past year, and it’s about to become real.
This June, I’ll be celebrating a (ahem…) milestone birthday. About a year ago, I began to dream about how I’d love to celebrate.
How I made that decision is a story in itself. But one day I just knew.
I would welcome my new decade by walking the Camino de Santiago.
If you haven’t heard of it, the Camino de Santiago is an ancient pilgrimage route. It stretches 490 miles, from southwest France to the northwestern tip of Spain, which was once thought to be the end of the world. People have been walking this route for at least 1,200 years, seeking to understand the mysteries at “the end of the world”…and within themselves.
The day after I made the decision, I began to walk…and walk and walk. In addition to the physical training, I read everything I could find on how to pack. Pilgrims on the Camino typically sleep in pilgrim hostels, but carry their clothing, personal effects, water and a meal’s worth of food on their backs.
When you’re walking 15-18 miles/day for 5 weeks in a row, the weight of your pack can make the difference between comfort and misery. But there are so many packing questions to consider. What if it’s cold? (Could well be, in the mountainous portions of the route.) What if it rains? (Almost guaranteed in the end stretch, through the wettest province in Spain.) What if I can’t find dinner? What if I get lost?
What if, what if, what if.
The weight of preparing for “what ifs” would put anyone’s pack over the recommended carrying weight. But how do you decide what’s worth taking?
The best advice I’ve received is this: Be sure not to pack your fears.
When you’re exposed to the elements for over a month, there’s no way to anticipate every possible challenge and uncertainty. Get clear on what’s most important. Trust yourself to handle the rest, should you need to.
Here’s where you come in. What are you carrying around that’s weighing you down?
If you’re a cancer survivor, it’s likely that one of your answers is “fear.”
Last winter I surveyed my community, asking “How would your life be different if you didn’t have to worry about cancer recurrence?” Your response was incredible: the highest response rate for any survey I’ve ever conducted. And your comments about what you were afraid of touched me to the core.
What I found out was:
• there are an awful lot of you worried about cancer coming back or getting worse (no, you’re not alone)
• you’re really concerned about the impact fear is having on your health, relationships and your ability to enjoy life (“Sometimes I can’t sleep at night.” “I keep thinking this holiday may be my last.”)
• you haven’t yet found a sustainable way to keep your fear at bay (“It’s like a cloud over me all the time.”)
I hear you.
Fear after cancer is a real issue, but it’s rarely talked about. It’s time that changed.
In my upcoming posts, we’re going to take a closer look at fear: why it’s so pervasive among survivors, the different forms it takes, and most importantly, what you can do about it.
But now it’s your turn. Leave a comment below and tell me: what would your life look like if you didn’t have to worry about cancer?
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